Work is piling up again,
But this time I just take it one step at the time,
I'm being ++positive++ of what i'm doing,
Being happy :) that i have things to do,
Cherish every moment i have,
Keep on smiling no matter how hard i have to go through the day,
Call mum, dad and my sisters whenever i have time,
Laugh with my friends on the phone,
Sleep (ZZZzzzzz...) whenever there's a time to sleep,
Sing my lungs out when i needed one,
Make fun of people when i have to,
Play with my cute little nephew when he's in the mood,
Text Calvin and talk all the bithcy stuff when i feel bitcy,
Call my lover when i need someone to share all my problems,
And last but not least,
Counting the day pass by when there's a plan to go back to Kuching.
Monday, March 30, 2009
Tuesday, March 17, 2009
Grateful
I miss this place... ;(I couldn't recall the last time i went to church for a prayer. All I know is that it was a long, long time ago (1 month plus actually). The reason is that the place where i stay right now, they do not have protestant church here. It was always a routine for me to pray for a thankful everytime when i had my visit to church, and each time I did that, I felt that I am closer to God, love one, relatives and friends regardless their whereabouts.
Dear God, I want to give thanks to;
-My parent and both my sisters; who gave me an endless love, who support me during hard times, who take care of my well-being and who always there for me when i needed them most.
-My friends; Lloyd, Bryan, Leo, Diana, Olivia, Jessica & BF, Galvin and the others for their comfort, help, and for the joy and the laugh they shared with me all through the years.
-My relatives; wherever they may be, for their aid in things that I needed from them all this while.
Grant them a place in your Kingdom and send your Guardian Angel to watch over them, Amen.
Dear God, I want to give thanks to;
-My parent and both my sisters; who gave me an endless love, who support me during hard times, who take care of my well-being and who always there for me when i needed them most.
-My friends; Lloyd, Bryan, Leo, Diana, Olivia, Jessica & BF, Galvin and the others for their comfort, help, and for the joy and the laugh they shared with me all through the years.
-My relatives; wherever they may be, for their aid in things that I needed from them all this while.
Grant them a place in your Kingdom and send your Guardian Angel to watch over them, Amen.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Updating
"Break"-ing up
Sorry I was away for quite some time; I know Oli has been waiting for my updated blog so I decided to write one or two sentences. Well, thing hasn’t been great lately, but I keep reminding myself that this is a test that I have to go through.
I realize that I’ve been taking thing too resilient lately, especially on decision making that would affect my future. Looks like this time I really have to make a stern judgment regarding the trail I should take and do. Last few night I had a very “inspirational” discussion with Oli, thanks to her that she has opened up my mind and at least gave me some clue of what’s next.
Back to the future…a recap
You see, I’ve been thinking of taking a long break from my job since early this year. In addition, I haven’t, wait…correction NEVER take a break for more than two weeks since I left UITM and Unimas as a student. My life after study was always revolving around with continuous working days and hours. But I enjoy it as much as I enjoy my study, besides what could be better than receiving your pay at the end of the day.
It was a brief autumn break after completion of my diploma in 2003, when I was called for an interview for the post of Research Assistant. I got the job and worked with UITM research unit for more than 6 months before my admission to Unimas in 2004. Quite frankly that it was a surprise, because I never thought I would be selected as one of the student to further my bachelor degree, after I got pretty bad result on my final semester in UITM the previous year.
So after more than 6 months of working, I further my study in Unimas and at the same time took a part time job as research assistant, just to gain extra income and to cover my study expenses. Even then when I was having 3 months of study break, a lecturer from chemistry department called me up to assist her with her project, and I was again hired to do the job for her. On June 2007 which is my final year in Unimas, I was just finished presenting my project when I was called for an interview for a job that require one year of training. So I went for the interview, underwent training and got myself the job, which is the job that I’m doing now.
Perhaps what drive me to do all those sorts of thing is the enthusiasm and the adrenalin to look for other opportunity to survive on my own, and not to depend too much on others. And now that I realize I have been taking life too serious, too serious that I’ve never take time to break for a while and listen to my own heart.
Oli’s text (Con’t)
I was lying on my bed last night thinking how others are coping up with their work and stuff. Then, Lady D and Oli popped-up in my mind. Lady D and Oli are my best friends ever since I came to Shah Alam to pay a visit to Kevin on Christmas 2003. They are both ex-hotelier to one of the famous hotel in Kuching, and Lady D is now working with Singapore Airline as an air hostess while Oli has been posted to work in Bintulu recently (congrats!). So I decided to text Oli, and ask her point of view on taking a break from work.
Here is some of the interpretation I got from Oli’s text;
“Everything in life is about taking a risk, and decision making is never easy. One has to prepare of what the outcome may be. Do things that make you happy, because you deserve it and never let an obstacle get you on your way. Never feel empathic to your employer, because when you’re gone, they won’t even remember your face. Have faith in God, because believe it He have a better plan for us. Always look forward, and never look back.”
So that was some of the elucidation from my discussion with Oli. I find that it was true indeed, especially the part where you don’t have to feel empathy to your boss. Perhaps all these while I was just worried about getting someone to replace my position, which to be honest is none of my business. The truth is they are the one who should be worried looking for someone to replace me.
Looking forward
I believe most of us often find ourselves lost halfway through our journey, and that was when we seek others for help. I was lost seeking for my inner self before, but now I’ve found what I was looking for. It took me quite a long time to realize though; perhaps all this while the doubt inside of me have discourage me from moving forward, hence I lost confidence to stood up for my own judgment. But not this time, I have faith that everything will be just fine, as long as I’m following the pathway that I’ve planned for.
Sorry I was away for quite some time; I know Oli has been waiting for my updated blog so I decided to write one or two sentences. Well, thing hasn’t been great lately, but I keep reminding myself that this is a test that I have to go through.
I realize that I’ve been taking thing too resilient lately, especially on decision making that would affect my future. Looks like this time I really have to make a stern judgment regarding the trail I should take and do. Last few night I had a very “inspirational” discussion with Oli, thanks to her that she has opened up my mind and at least gave me some clue of what’s next.
Back to the future…a recap
You see, I’ve been thinking of taking a long break from my job since early this year. In addition, I haven’t, wait…correction NEVER take a break for more than two weeks since I left UITM and Unimas as a student. My life after study was always revolving around with continuous working days and hours. But I enjoy it as much as I enjoy my study, besides what could be better than receiving your pay at the end of the day.
It was a brief autumn break after completion of my diploma in 2003, when I was called for an interview for the post of Research Assistant. I got the job and worked with UITM research unit for more than 6 months before my admission to Unimas in 2004. Quite frankly that it was a surprise, because I never thought I would be selected as one of the student to further my bachelor degree, after I got pretty bad result on my final semester in UITM the previous year.
So after more than 6 months of working, I further my study in Unimas and at the same time took a part time job as research assistant, just to gain extra income and to cover my study expenses. Even then when I was having 3 months of study break, a lecturer from chemistry department called me up to assist her with her project, and I was again hired to do the job for her. On June 2007 which is my final year in Unimas, I was just finished presenting my project when I was called for an interview for a job that require one year of training. So I went for the interview, underwent training and got myself the job, which is the job that I’m doing now.
Perhaps what drive me to do all those sorts of thing is the enthusiasm and the adrenalin to look for other opportunity to survive on my own, and not to depend too much on others. And now that I realize I have been taking life too serious, too serious that I’ve never take time to break for a while and listen to my own heart.
Oli’s text (Con’t)
I was lying on my bed last night thinking how others are coping up with their work and stuff. Then, Lady D and Oli popped-up in my mind. Lady D and Oli are my best friends ever since I came to Shah Alam to pay a visit to Kevin on Christmas 2003. They are both ex-hotelier to one of the famous hotel in Kuching, and Lady D is now working with Singapore Airline as an air hostess while Oli has been posted to work in Bintulu recently (congrats!). So I decided to text Oli, and ask her point of view on taking a break from work.
Here is some of the interpretation I got from Oli’s text;
“Everything in life is about taking a risk, and decision making is never easy. One has to prepare of what the outcome may be. Do things that make you happy, because you deserve it and never let an obstacle get you on your way. Never feel empathic to your employer, because when you’re gone, they won’t even remember your face. Have faith in God, because believe it He have a better plan for us. Always look forward, and never look back.”
So that was some of the elucidation from my discussion with Oli. I find that it was true indeed, especially the part where you don’t have to feel empathy to your boss. Perhaps all these while I was just worried about getting someone to replace my position, which to be honest is none of my business. The truth is they are the one who should be worried looking for someone to replace me.
Looking forward
I believe most of us often find ourselves lost halfway through our journey, and that was when we seek others for help. I was lost seeking for my inner self before, but now I’ve found what I was looking for. It took me quite a long time to realize though; perhaps all this while the doubt inside of me have discourage me from moving forward, hence I lost confidence to stood up for my own judgment. But not this time, I have faith that everything will be just fine, as long as I’m following the pathway that I’ve planned for.
Thursday, February 12, 2009
News from North, and South
Mom had her first fever of the year, was talking with her over the phone just now. Most probable reason for her sickness is infection from little sister because she has just got hers last week. Dad actually has informed me about her situation yesterday, but I didn’t really have the time to call her. She said that she complained about her body ache to dad the day earlier but didn’t suspect that it was a sign of fever. Later that night she had her sore throat so dad took her to clinic.
Big sis is 4 months old pregnant now, called her yesterday and she told me that her belly got a little bigger. She also told me about her craving for food and stuff and we talked about financial spending on food for family. It seems that we have the same problem on the matter since we are contributing our finances on household expenses especially on food. You see, I’m not really a big spender when it comes to grocery shopping. Only at times, I would buy stuff that I really want to have, and the stuff that I bought is enough to cater the whole pack for a week.
But it is unlikely here that sometimes I have to do twice weekly for grocery hunt just to fill the refrigerator and cabinet with food. And occasionally, the food proportion served was too much that the leftover was left on the table waited to be discarded. Big sis told me that if the food allocation is not enough for the whole week, she wouldn’t buy it until the new week started, just to teach them a lesson.
Called Lloyd this morning to ask him about the news from the clan. He said that he had been busy since last week with his traveling and family matters. I was told that he was attending his in-law funeral last weekend. I was surprised with the news and he told me that the incident leads to his death was posted on a local paper. Other than that, he is perfectly fine and said that he might going to pay me a visit sometime on March.
Big sis is 4 months old pregnant now, called her yesterday and she told me that her belly got a little bigger. She also told me about her craving for food and stuff and we talked about financial spending on food for family. It seems that we have the same problem on the matter since we are contributing our finances on household expenses especially on food. You see, I’m not really a big spender when it comes to grocery shopping. Only at times, I would buy stuff that I really want to have, and the stuff that I bought is enough to cater the whole pack for a week.
But it is unlikely here that sometimes I have to do twice weekly for grocery hunt just to fill the refrigerator and cabinet with food. And occasionally, the food proportion served was too much that the leftover was left on the table waited to be discarded. Big sis told me that if the food allocation is not enough for the whole week, she wouldn’t buy it until the new week started, just to teach them a lesson.
Called Lloyd this morning to ask him about the news from the clan. He said that he had been busy since last week with his traveling and family matters. I was told that he was attending his in-law funeral last weekend. I was surprised with the news and he told me that the incident leads to his death was posted on a local paper. Other than that, he is perfectly fine and said that he might going to pay me a visit sometime on March.
Growing up during hard time
Taking the right path of life isn’t easy as it seems. The complexity of mind usually became port that command, plan and make us act the way we should. Sometimes I wonder if the decision made were just according to the mind alone, or just a mere instinct of the heart. Human, do not build like a robot that only obeys command from a remote control or processor. After all, robots are build by human himself, using the thought that is gifted by God.
Why am I talking all this crap? I found that sometimes when we are trapped in a crossroad of life, where we are forced to make decision that we don’t even like. That really gets to my nerve. People said, ‘list out the pros and cons”, “ask second opinion”. Well, I did that; sometimes listing pages of pages of pros and cons doesn’t help. I’m not being pessimistic but that is the truth about life. Sometimes people that made us make that decision are just being self-centered that they only think of their personal interest. At the end, those who don’t really matters are the one who gets the pay. But have no regret, because I believe all the punishment of his afterlife will be greater than that of what he did to others.
My previous boss used to said, “We are considered mature enough when we have experienced the ups and down of life and the best time to experience that is when you are grown up during the hard times”. That was the last statement he told me before I left his unit. Now I understand what he meant, this is the time where all the hard times that will give a lesson for me to learn. I’m eager to do it, but I’m not that enthusiast about it. Because I know what lies ahead is far more greater than everyone could imagine
Why am I talking all this crap? I found that sometimes when we are trapped in a crossroad of life, where we are forced to make decision that we don’t even like. That really gets to my nerve. People said, ‘list out the pros and cons”, “ask second opinion”. Well, I did that; sometimes listing pages of pages of pros and cons doesn’t help. I’m not being pessimistic but that is the truth about life. Sometimes people that made us make that decision are just being self-centered that they only think of their personal interest. At the end, those who don’t really matters are the one who gets the pay. But have no regret, because I believe all the punishment of his afterlife will be greater than that of what he did to others.
My previous boss used to said, “We are considered mature enough when we have experienced the ups and down of life and the best time to experience that is when you are grown up during the hard times”. That was the last statement he told me before I left his unit. Now I understand what he meant, this is the time where all the hard times that will give a lesson for me to learn. I’m eager to do it, but I’m not that enthusiast about it. Because I know what lies ahead is far more greater than everyone could imagine
Thursday, February 5, 2009
Expressing the thought
Can’t believe time is running fast, it’s been almost a month since I came to Kapit. Things been going well lately, work is fine and I wonder where’d my previous boss been. The last time I heard he was having gastric problem so he have to take a sick leave, but he didn’t inform me to take a week leave, it’s none of my concern anyway. 3 weeks of staying also indicates that it has been 3 weeks of being person-in-charge in the office where I work now. It’s funny in such a short time that I’ve been seeing all kind of scenario, office scenario to be exact, that I consider some of them hilarious while some are not.
SOME THINGS TO PONDER, AND A LESSON TO LEARN
Most of the time my job is just giving signature on paper, reporting to the manager besides monitoring the staff. Sound simple? Not as simple as you thought. Facing problems with the customers are common. In rare cases I’ve encountered not so long ago, I have to face the public and the higher authority, which I think a lesson worth to learn. And just a few days ago, on a rainy afternoon when I was doing some of my jobs, one of my staff was banging his fist on the table. I was informed that he was angry over a job that was delegated to him, which he has to redo it. The thing is; he is over a half-century old, about to retire, have kids and wife. Okay…duh…I believe when people gets older, they also get wiser. But in this case, “get dumb-er when you get older”- that is a thing worth to ponder…
BLAME IT ON THE WEATHERMAN
Okay, enough with office drama. The water level in Rejang River has been high since last week. The periodic raining not only has made the situation worse, it was said that some areas were affected by problems such as flood and landslide. I can say that this is the worse monsoon season I’ve been experience in my whole life. Kuching is also no better than Kapit, I was told that it’s been a gloomy days with raining on and off every single day since late December. Because of that, the price of market goods here in Kapit also hiked to as high as RM15-17 for a price of vegetables per kilos. The only option is to buy imported vegetable which is far cheaper.
THE WEEKEND PLAN
Back in Kuching, weekend was filled with shopping and late night outing. In contrary, there were not much of such activities to do here. The town is so small that it only took you less than half an hour visit. Shopping mall? Nope, there are no shopping mall and places to hang out here. The only thing you can do here is try to blend around with the people and make full use of the time to have fun. Owh, did I mention they have Sugarbun here? It’s not one of my favorite fast food restaurant but at least they have fast food restaurant franchise here.
Wednesday, January 28, 2009
Taking a break
First and foremost, I hope it’s not too late for me to wish a Happy Chinese New Year for those who are celebrating Chinese New Year. May the year of Ox bring prosperity and wealth to all. Last holiday also give me a chance to go back to town (Kuching) to settle some unfinished business. It was a hectic journey, went to Sibu via express boat in the afternoon and stayed at Sibu for a while. After that took a bus to Serian at 1.00am, because there was no more ticket available that was en route to Kuching.
The bus was supposedly depart at 11.00pm but due to a delayed journey from Bintulu, we have to wait for 2 hours before it finally arrive. That was not all of it, just before the bus was about to take off, there was a couple who quarrel with the bus driver demanding that the bus would take them to Kuching…(hello…didn’t they read the sign on the bus that says…Bintulu-Sibu-Tebedu). The event took about 15 minutes before we eventually take off to Serian.
The bus arrived at its destination (Serian) around 6.30 am. Cart’s father (a colleague of mine) fetch us at bus terminal and I had my transit at her house not far from Serian town before she drove me to Kuching and reached home around 9.00am in the morning.
There were not much things to do during the 3 days stay. Well, here is the list of things that I did during that 3 days stay.
Things that I manage to do:
The bus was supposedly depart at 11.00pm but due to a delayed journey from Bintulu, we have to wait for 2 hours before it finally arrive. That was not all of it, just before the bus was about to take off, there was a couple who quarrel with the bus driver demanding that the bus would take them to Kuching…(hello…didn’t they read the sign on the bus that says…Bintulu-Sibu-Tebedu). The event took about 15 minutes before we eventually take off to Serian.
The bus arrived at its destination (Serian) around 6.30 am. Cart’s father (a colleague of mine) fetch us at bus terminal and I had my transit at her house not far from Serian town before she drove me to Kuching and reached home around 9.00am in the morning.
There were not much things to do during the 3 days stay. Well, here is the list of things that I did during that 3 days stay.
Things that I manage to do:
• spending time with family
• meet Bryan and Leo
• hang out on Chinese new year eve at airport with friends
Things I didn’t manage to do:
• Meeting Loid and some people I consider needed to meet
• Open house visiting with old friends just like we used to do
• Go on shopping and spending few dime on clothes
Later that Tuesday, left Kuching at 5.00 am in the morning with my Atos and pick Cartrina up at mile 29th Serian road. The journey took us around 6 hours to reach Sibu, unfortunately we couldn’t catch up the express boat because we were late. So we spend the night at the nearest hotel and left Sibu as early as 5.45am and manage to reach office at 9.00 am.
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