Where?

Where to go from here?
I don't know, I don't know.
North, East, South or West?
I don't know, I don't know.

Where to go from here?
When Decision have to make clear.
Yes, no, maybe, I don't know.
Can't decide, can't decide,
looking left to right.

Where to go from here?
Work's getting tough with hopeless answers.
Ticking clock don't wait for losers.
Wait, wait, I'll get it, I'll get it.
Again, again another procrastinate.

Where to go from here?
Think...think...
No idea, no idea what to write anymore,
Perhaps, I should for go lunch first.
The I'll get back and write some more. LOL!


P/s: *Kroh...kroh...* Hungry.

Let Me Speak Up! - Failed Love part 1

It is of a usual habit to gussy myself up for the last time before I hit the road every morning when I was about to go off to campus. This morning though, astounded; not because of how gorgeous I looked in the mirror, nor how beautiful the dress I wear. I saw myself, just me.

That was when a vivid past came back to me. The past relationship, the failed one. Well, Colbie Callait might have a good reason pointing out this song called "Realize" in her hit single. And it does took me sometime to realize the rise and fall in my previous love life drama.

Once, I forced myself to be someone I am not. Listening to songs that I'm not into to. Imagining myself flipping trough bios of an artist I don't even like, was probably something that was not-so-important thing I've ever did. Sometimes, I find no tolerance in certain issues especially regarding my social life; I hate to say this but it sucks when I don't get to see or hangout with my best bud for ages; for all you know I have my own life and it's not always about you.

It would be immature of me if I'd say so-and-so is to blame, because I know there would be endless argument. The most important thing here is that I've learned my lesson, and it is enough for me to reflect back faulty of the past,in case I am caught in one in the future.

P/s: Stick to who you are, being someone else wouldn't make you any better.

May in the highlight

Just came back from the longest holiday of the semester, pretty much enjoy it. Partly because of the family reunion and a shocking news from the clan.

The end of May not only marks the end of the semester, but it is also time for the Dayaks to celebrate harvest festival. Like other festivals, this is also the time for family members to reunite. This year is the first year of the first generation in our family to celebrate the festival with a grandchild. Mom was all too enthusiast with the idea, she'd spent most of her time baking and planning an event in early May. Nonetheless, with cousins wedding reception lined up in the calendar makes May and June to be one the most anticipated month.

Just right before Gawai celebration, Kev came back for his usual celebration pit stop. As a ritual for his arrival, we went for a so called "themed" night out with the gang. We arrive at the scene pretty much earlier than the others, so we had ourselves with few cocktails on the go. I was not really up to this cocktail thingy at the first place but he insisted me to try it anyway. Quite frankly that I became addicted right a way, and ordered few different others over the bar.

Met new members of the group that night, due to unpredictable relationship complication that happened when i was away for 2 months. Good to know that they can fit in, and hopefully it will last.

What else? *thinking*...guess that is all the highlight for May and June, will write again the soonest.